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21st, November 2024

If you ask me the question' How would I describe myself as a person?' I would say consistent, determined, strong opinion, optimistic, someone who enjoys her own company, has a small circle, loves listening to music, food, reading, writing, and running. Well I was definitely a different person when I was a kid, I guess we grow differently compared to how we used to be as a child right? haha.

I grew up in a big city surrounded by mountains, haha unfortunately I am not a big fan of mountains (sorry for the mountain lover haha), I am more into the beach, sea that stuff. But I do admit that the mountain is beautiful, I just don't get excited by seeing the mountain anymore, cos I guess I've just been to the mountain almost every summer since I was a child haha. tbh I've not had too many memories of my childhood, the only thing I still remember is the time that I spent with my grandfather and my sister. btw, actually, there is the cultural thing, she is my cousin, well people call all the child of their uncle or aunt as sister or brother in China, confusing right haha I know.Well, if you ask me ' how was my childhood? did I have a happy childhood?' if I could only choose by answering yes or no, my answer would definitely be 'NO', haha well I didn't mean to sound depressed but that's the fact. Cos I've not had a really good connection with my parents, I am just not that close to them, sorry about that. tbh I just couldn't really remember the time I've spent with my parents when I was a child, the most thing I've heard from them was ' oh sorry we have to go, here we give you money, you buy everything you want'. haha sounds not too bad right. Well I mean, love, company, patience are difinitely the most important things for a child, for me when I was at a young age.

Well, you know, the thing is, that kind of unpleasant childhood experience kinda shaped my personality and led to the result of I started learning to enjoy loneliness, to be alone. There is a saying in Dutch which is 'het leven is een feestje, maar je moet zelf de slingers ophangen', translate into english is ' life is a party, but it depends on how you celebrate it yourself.' sounds pretty mad right, haha. Well that's kinda true to me tbh haha. A headphone, a laptop, a speaker, a book, a piece of paper and a pen, I could definitely make my every day like a party haha.

Stay safe, love ja🤍

cheers